Stardate 51703.4

In orbit of Earth, Sol System

 

            The U.S.S. Besiege was ready to depart the Sol system and meet up with the Tenth Fleet for training exercises.  In the transporter room, they were waiting for their last visitor to depart.  Commodore Val’ri Raiajh had called in a favor to the ship’s commanding officer, Captain William McLeod.  Raiajh’s husband, Dr. Sylvan Xaran, and his sister Dr. Jill Xaran needed to return to Betazed for their father’s funeral.  Raiajh would normally have gone with them as well; however, she was due to give birth in five weeks and was advised not to travel due to the war.  The Besiege was going to stop at Betazed just long enough to transport both doctors to the surface before meeting up with the fleet.

 

            Raiajh gave her husband a hug and a kiss goodbye, before stepping onto the transporter platform.

 

            ‘I love you, Imzadi,’ Xaran said to her.

 

            I love you too,’ Raiajh responded telepathically.  Aloud, she added, “I’ll see you in a few weeks.”  Seconds later, the transporter beam enveloped her.  Little did either of them know, at the time, it would be the last time they would see each other until late the following year.

 

 

Star Trek: Personal Logs

 

“Innocence Lost” by Nadine B. Bach

 

 

Stardate 51722.0; Commodore’s Log, Val’ri Raiajh recording:

The Tenth Fleet has been ordered back to Betazed with all due haste.  However, I’m afraid they will arrive too late.  In a surprise move, the Dominion have begun an invasion of the Betazed system and is gaining ground quickly.  Dr. Sylvan Xaran, who is on personal leave, is still on Betazed, attending funeral services for his father.  There are also additional Starfleet personnel on the planet who were unable to be evacuated before the invasion and who are now in harm’s way.  I fear it’s going to take quite some time to liberate Betazed from the grip of the Dominion and their Cardassian allies.

 

Personal Log, Supplemental:

This is beginning to wear on me personally, as I believe I have felt a contraction.  After more than three years of waiting for Julian’s treatment to work, Sylvan and I were ecstatic when we found out about Katrina.  However, under the current situation, in all likelihood he will not be here to witness her birth. 

 

 

Stardate 51724.0

Starfleet Headquarters, San Francisco, California

 

            Lieutenant Marie Quintero, Raiajh’s aide, walked into Raiajh’s office.

 

            “Commodore, we have received some news from the front,” Quintero began.  “We lost Betazed to the Dominion.”

 

            “I know, Marie,” was Raiajh’s reply as she looked up from her monitor screen and wiped a tear away.

 

            “Dr. Xaran is still there, isn’t he?”

 

            “Yes, though he’s alive and apparently safe for the moment,” Raiajh replied.

 

            “Let’s hope he stays safe,” Quintero remarked before moving on to the business that brought her into Raiajh’s office.  “Commodore, you have an appointment at Starfleet Medical in ten minutes.  You know Dr. Simmons doesn’t like to be kept waiting.”

 

            “I know.  I’ll see you in a bit, Marie.  If Dr. Simmons calls, tell him I’m on my way, and tell him why I’m late.”  Then, as she stood up to leave, Raiajh experienced a weak contraction.  She placed one hand on the top of her expanded belly with the other on the edge of her desk.

 

            “What’s wrong?” Quintero asked with concern.

 

            “I’m fine,” Raiajh assured.  “I’ve been experiencing minor, intermittent contractions since late last night, but nothing of concern.  They’ve been weak and well over an hour apart.”

 

            “Well, get to it, Commodore.”

 

            Raiajh left her office and transported over to Starfleet Medical and her appointment with Dr. Simmons, who was a colleague and long-time friend of her husband.  Dr. Jack Simmons not only worked with Xaran at Starfleet medical, but had also been born on Betazed to human parents who still reside there.  Xaran and Simmons had grown up together and their families were close.  Simmons was waiting for Raiajh as she stepped off the transporter pad.  As the two walked back to Simmons’ office and exam room, they spoke.

 

            “Commodore, I received a call from your aide.  She said you have been having contractions since last night?”

 

            “Jack, I’m fine,” Raiajh assured.  “The contractions are over an hour apart.  I don’t believe I’m in any danger of delivering today.  Besides, I knew I was coming to see you.”

 

            “Other than the contractions, how are you feeling?” Simmons asked.

 

            “Physically, I’m fine.  Mentally, it’s a different story.  Jack, the Dominion took Betazed.  Sylvan and Jill are still there, now trapped behind enemy lines.”

 

            “Not an ideal situation, even in the best of circumstances.  I hope my parents are okay.”

 

            “I’m sure they are,” Raiajh said quietly.  “They were supposed to be with Sylvan and his family in the Loneel Valley, along with a few other members of the family and friends, including Tessa and her husband.  My Father-in-Law always liked the valley and wanted his ashes scattered to the winds there.”

 

            “When we were younger, our parents would take us for vacations there,” Simmons explained.  “They should be fine.  There are emergency shelters and caves in the mountains, and they are incapable of being scanned due to a large amount of fistrium deposits throughout the region.  If they are in the valley and made it to one of the shelters then they will be fine; physically at least.”

 

            Just as they arrived at the office, Raiajh had another contraction, this one was slightly stronger than the ones she had been having.  Simmons noticed Raiajh’s reaction and quickly grabbed his medical tricorder and began scanning her.

 

            “We need to get you over to labor and delivery.  Your blood pressure is elevated and the stress of today isn’t helping matters.”

 

            Raiajh looked concerned.  “Is Katrina alright?” she asked.  “My due date is still four weeks away.”

 

            “Val, the baby is fine.  She’s gestationally mature, and weighs over 3600 grams, which is more than sufficient size.  What you are going through now is the earliest stages of labor.  I’m just going to help it along.”

            “Jack, contact my aide.  Marie is going to have to get Charissa and watch her until Katrina and I can come home.”

 

            “Don’t worry,” Simmons assured her.  “I’ll make sure it gets done.”

 

            It was 0645 hours the following day in San Francisco when Katrina Xaran was born.  

 

*          *          *


Stardate 51733.5

Loneel Valley Cave System, Betazed

 


            In a shelter created by the Betazed government within the caves, Sylvan Xaran sat away from a small group of Betazoids and humans, his knees bent in front of him so he could hide his face because he was crying.

 

            Anatessa Kitrin walked over and quietly sat down next to him.  Despite what had happened in their past, the two families having bonded Sylvan Xaran and Anatessa Kitrin in their youth – a bonding that Xaran had broken with his marriage to Raiajh – the Kitrins and the Xarans had remained friends.  Tessa eventually ended up meeting someone else, Steve Callahan, on what was supposed to be her last day and night on Earth back in 2367, fallen in love, and was enjoying married life.  They hit it off so well the night they met that she had put off returning to Betazed to get to know him better, then carried on a long-distance relationship until Callahan got a job that allowed him to move to Betazed in late-2368 and he proposed marriage to her the next year, tying the knot in late-2371.  Tessa, like Raiajh, was also pregnant, seven and a half months along when the Dominion invaded the system.

 

            “Thinking about Val?” she asked.

 

            Xaran nodded, then looked up and tried to scrub away the tears.

 

            “Wishing I was back in San Francisco.  Something feels different about the bond I share with Val.   I think she’s had the baby.”

 

            “Are you sure?” Kitrin asked.  “From what you told me, she would be a month early.”

 

            Deltans, Vulcans and Betazoids have different gestational cycles between 8 and 10 months.  Val had just about completed 9 months.  I should have been there.”

 

            “I’m sure she understands,” Kitrin assured.

 

            “I hope that Jonathan is safe where he is,” Xaran then remarked, referring to the boy he and Raiajh had adopted, along with his sister Charissa, when his brother and sister-in-law had died shortly after he and Raiajh had married.

 

            “He’ll be safer where he is then in these caves,” Kitrin answered.  “And I’m sure the Federation forces will do what they can to take control of Betazed back as soon as possible.”

 

            “They will, but it will take time.  The Dominion is making us fight this war on multiple fronts.  Starfleet will expect those of us here on the planet to aid in any resistance, and I don’t mean just those of us in Starfleet.  I for one am not going to cower in these caves while the Dominion takes over Betazed.  I want to get home to Val and our daughters as soon as possible.  We are going to have to do what we can to fight back.”

 

            “But we don’t have any weapons like phasers here, Sylvan.”

 

            Phasers wouldn’t be of much help in this situation anyway,” Xaran remarked.  “The soldiers of the Dominion, the Jem’Hadar, are not going to be the easiest to fight in a traditional sense.  They have the ability to blend into their surroundings and cloak themselves.”

 

            “We have to fight that?” Kitrin asked incredulously.  “If not with phasers, then how?”

 

            “Sometimes primitive weapons can be more effective.  There is everything we need to make weapons in this valley.  I believe the toxins in the zintaba root should work on the Jem’Hadar as effectively as any other species.”

 

            “Blow guns?” Kitrin asked.  Xaran nodded.  “Sylvan, I doubt anyone here, including me, have ever used one – let alone made one!”

 

            “Making one is the easy part,” Xaran said.  “And I can show everyone willing to learn how to use one.  We’re also going to need slings and other small weapons of that type for hunting.  We’re going to need food and supplies if we’re going to hold out here, and we can’t use the blow guns to hunt because of the toxins.”

 

            “I can understand not wanting to use blow darts for hunting, but do you really think we will really need to do so?”

 

            “Tessa, we don’t know how long we are going to be out here.  Chances are it’s going to be months before Starfleet can break-through the Dominion lines in this sector and get through to us.  It’s not generally known, but the war isn’t going as well as people think.”

 

            Kitrin sat in silent contemplation for a moment before finally saying, “I think Steve can help with the hunting.  He mentioned something about going with his buddies to hunt deer and turkey back on Earth; someplace called Antigo, Wisconsin.”

 

            “I’ve heard of the place actually,” Xaran remarked.  “I was told that the rural areas of Wisconsin were good hunting grounds.  Jack Simmons has gone up that way a few times.  However, the only thing he shot were holo-vids of his time there.”

 

            “How is Jack doing these days?” Kitrin asked.

 

            “Good.  Spends a lot of his time at Starfleet Medical.  He dates here and there but no one steady.  Just the way he is.”

 

            While the pair was talking, Steve Callahan – Kitrin’s human husband – walked over and joined them.

 

            “What are you two over here talking about?  Nothing I need be jealous about, I hope,” he joked.

 

            “Nothing you need worry about, Steve,” Xaran assured.  “Babies; an old friend; and defending ourselves against the Dominion.”

 

            “How can I help?” Callahan asked.  “I’d hate to see the Dominion destroy this beautiful world.”

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate 51825.1

Betazed

 

            In the seven years that Xaran had been married to his wife, she worked to teach him how to better shield his thoughts from others and himself from the other’s thoughts.  Although Betazoids learn some shielding techniques, it was generally just enough on a world that was idyllic and peaceful, such as Betazed was before the Jem’Hadar and the Vorta arrived.  Now, under occupation by the Dominion, nerves were raw and on edge.  Amongst those hiding in the caves, the close, cramped quarters were no help.  Teaching the Betazoid population hiding with him in the cavern the techniques Raiajh had taught him proved harder than expected for Xaran.  Unfortunately, many refused to learn, feeling the techniques ran contrary to the openness of Betazoid society that had lasted for centuries.  As a result, tensions were running high.  Xaran was thankful for what Raiajh had taught him.  It was certainly helping now.

 

            The mood of his mother was the worst of all those present.  She had started blaming the Federation, and more specifically his wife, Val’ri Raiajh, for allowing the Dominion occupation of Betazed.  Xaran tried to explain to her on several occasions that his wife was responsible for overseeing Starfleet activities in the Beta Quadrant, not the sector where the Betazed system was located in the Alpha Quadrant, but to this point she was unable to distinguish the difference.  To her Beta equated to anything with the term Beta in it, including the Federation name for the planet, Betazed.

 

            What saddened him even more was her response when he told her about Katrina, her grandchild.  Xaran’s mother had reiterated that she would never accept his marriage to Raiajh nor any child born of that union.  To her, her son’s ultimate insult to the family was turning his back on his society’s traditions.  While Xaran’s father had eventually accepted what his son had done, after seeing that he and his daughter-in-law truly loved and cared for each other, his mother never did, going so far as not allowing Raiajh to be recognized as a daughter of the Tenth House.  Their House was small as it was, and aside from Xaran’s mother, the only women allowed to claim the title of Daughters of the Tenth House of Betazed were his sister Jill and his adopted daughter Charissa, actually the offspring of his late brother.

 

            Steve Callahan walked over and sat down on a rock near where Xaran and his sister Jill were sitting.

 

            “I still can’t believe your mother.  I understand that the stress of the situation can cause mental impairments…”

 

            “Steve, my Mother never liked off-worlders,” Xaran explained.  “She tolerates humans because, with the exception of eye colors, they generally look like Betazoids.  Growing up, our Father tried to teach us to be accepting of all species.  Our mother, on the other hand, was just the opposite.  Always talking about keeping things ‘pure.’  That we needed to set an example for the other Betazoid Houses.  She always told my brother and I never to even consider bringing home any ‘pointy-eared’ girls.”

 

            “Or boys in my case,” Jill added.

 

            “Oh geez… I can imagine what happened after you met Val!”

 

            Xaran nodded.  “While on Earth, after I married Val, my mother took me aside at the Betazoid Embassy and practically read me the riot act.  ‘How could I do this to the family?  How dare I marry someone like Val after she told me not to ever consider a girl like her?’  My Dad was able to temper her hatred a bit, but not enough.”  Xaran shifted on his seat briefly before continuing.  “Growing up, I always wanted to be a doctor and I always wanted to join Starfleet.  I studied hard and I got accepted into Betazed University at 18 for their pre-med program.  I also took a number of psychology courses.  I enjoyed it more than I ever thought I would.  It only strengthened my resolve to join Starfleet Medical either as a doctor or a counselor.  And somehow, through it all, I always knew that I would find the girl I would marry among the stars and not the one my parents had chosen for me.  I never knew how right I was until that day we boarded the starship Arcturus.  My first day aboard the Arcturus I saw her, and I knew she saw me.  Our eyes met for a brief moment.  Over the next few days we would see each other in various spaces, but we didn’t have a chance to actually talk until ten days after I came aboard.  She had come into the mess deck and sat by herself.  I went over and sat with her.  I didn’t ask, just sat down and smiled at her.  She smiled back and that led to us talking for a few moments.  I knew then I wanted to get to know her better.  Odd as it may seem, I fell in love with her just sitting there talking.”

 

            “I remember reading about the Arcturus when it was found in 2367.  An old Tikopai-class starship that appeared in the Sol system seemingly out of nowhere after it had been listed as ‘lost with all hands’ about eighty years earlier.  I didn’t realize you were a part of that initial contact team.  When you first went aboard the Arcturus, were they still wearing those maroon uniforms with the flap we see in the old holo-vids?”

 

            “They were,” Xaran replied with a nod.  “In fact, except for feeling the emotions of the crew, it felt a bit like walking through a display at the Fleet Museum.”

 

            “Has anyone ever asked you any weird questions about Val?”

 

            “You mean like how does it feel to be married to someone who is old enough to be my grandmother?”

 

            “Seriously?  Someone actually asked you that?  She’s not actually that old!”

 

            “Seriously,” Xaran confirmed.  “Sometimes people don’t stop to think that just because 79 years passed from when the Arcturus disappeared to when they reappeared, doesn’t mean the crew actually experienced those 79 years.  For the crew of the Arcturus, a day late in the 23rd century suddenly became a day in 2367.  My wife may have been born in 2262, but I don’t let it bother me.  I have absolutely no regrets about falling in love with and marrying Val.”

 

            “I know what it’s like being separated from Anatessa even though we’ve never been formally bonded.  It must be tough on you being apart from Val like this?”

 

            “It is, Steve.  What keeps me going is each day that passes is one day closer to seeing her again.  It just hurts knowing  that I’m missing out on watching our daughters grow.  Charissa started learning about her telepathic abilities shortly before I left Earth.  And now I’m missing out on all the firsts with Katrina.  It’s amazing how quickly they grow.”

 

            “I hope that I get to enjoy watching my son grow up,” Callahan remarked.

 

            Xaran glanced across the cavern, to where Anatessa Kitran helped prepare food with several other women, her enlarged belly prominent.  “You will,” he assured.

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate 52002.2

Earth Year 2375

Betazed

 

            Xaran was leading a small scouting party.  The darkness of night was soon going to fade.  The scouts were hiding in the brush, watching the Dominion munitions supply depot at the foot of the mountains outside the Loneel Valley.  They had chosen this early morning hour to gather intelligence on the depot because the Dominion guards tended to be less vigilant and prepared, bothered more by the local wildlife most active at that time of day.

 

            The Betazoid resistance, as they now considered themselves, had been watching this particular Dominion outpost for the last several days to see if there would be any opportunity to infiltrate the facility and destroy the ketracel-white supplies that were stored there.  At present, there were only two Cardassian soldiers guarding the entrance to the lone structure.  

 

            Steve Callahan and a Starfleet Lieutenant (JG) named Aidan Barrows had proven over time to be the best with the blow guns the resistance had fashioned out of bamboo-like plants growing across the valley.  Both sat up in a crouching position and in quick succession darted the guards, who slumped to the ground before they got a chance to alert anyone that something was amiss.  Xaran then gave the order for Barrows to proceed with the fourth member of their team, a Betazoid/human named Jessie Hernandez, who was a third-year Starfleet cadet home on leave because of the death of her brother in battle.  The pair made it to the door and opened it carefully.  Keeping away from the door frame, one on either side, they made sure the interior was safe to enter.  After confirming the interior of the depot was empty of Dominion soldiers, the pair quickly entered and gathered up all the weapons they could carry on their shoulder and in the sacks they carried with them.  Inside they also found some much needed medicines and grabbed those as well.  Unfortunately, they were unable to find any of the ketracel-white their intel had indicated should be stored there.  With their raid complete, they left the Depot and headed back into the mountains to meet up with Xaran and Callahan at a pre-arranged location.

 

            “How did it go?” Xaran asked once the pair had returned.

 

            “Partially successful,” Lt Barrows replied as all four headed back toward their base of operations in the caves, careful not to leave behind a trail the Dominion could track.  “The White wasn’t there, but we managed to grab some much-needed supplies.”

 

            Once the scouting party was back in the cave, everyone gathered around and looked over what they had managed to take from the depot.  Most of the weapons had weak charges and would be almost useless.  However, Barrows and Hernandez did manage to come away with a few grenades, and the medicine they brought back was the best of their haul and made the raid worth the risk, as it included ryetalyn, which the resistance was in desperate need of.  Though the adults had been vaccinated against Rigelian fever, many of the young children who had been brought to the valley in the months since the invasion were vulnerable.

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate 52405.2

San Francisco, California, Earth

 

            Raiajh did her best to keep everything together both at home and in her duties at Starfleet.  The toll the war was beginning to get the better of her.  She was lying on the couch in her quarters holding Katrina and crying, at present because of the current state of the war.  Things were not going well, and if the Federation could not turn their fortunes around soon they would not be able to stop the Dominion.

 

            Charissa was worried about her mother and called for Dr. Simmons to come over and help.  Before he arrived Charissa had taken Katrina from Raiajh and put her down for a nap in her own bed.  Raiajh was still crying softly when Simmons walked in.

 

            “Val, I hate to inform you, but crying on the couch is not proper behavior for a Flag Officer,” the doctor chided her as he sat down in a chair opposite the couch.  His remark had the desired effect; she stopped crying and sat up, looking directly at Simmons.

 

            “Jack, I’d tell you to go to hell, but considering we’re already there…”

 

            “Then let’s find a way to get out of hell.”

 

            “If we can.  I’m beginning to think I’m never going to see Sylvan again.”

 

            “You have to stop thinking like that!” Simmons scolded.  “It’s not good for Charissa and Katrina and it’s definitely not good for you.”

 

            “Jack, nothing we’ve tried against the Dominion is working.”

 

            “Then it’s time to try something different.”

 

            “You’re right, but what?”

 

            “Figuring that out is your job.”

 

            “Jack, we’re out of ideas,” Raiajh remarked.  “All we can do at this point is keep fighting, but even with the Romulans on our side now, it still isn’t enough.”

 

            “What if you could get the Cardassians to turn against their Dominion allies?” Simmons asked.

 

            “That might work.  But how?”

 

            “You’ve got that Yeager-class ship, the U.S.S. Hawk, at your disposal, right?”

 

            “Yes, I have use of the ship, but because of the war there is no staff for it.  It just sits in dock at Utopia Planitia.”

 

            “Let’s round up a crew from those who are sitting around waiting for reassignment and find some Cardassians that would be willing to listen.”

 

            “I’m sure we could find some Cardassians willing to talk.  Jack, my biggest problem is not that.  It’s getting Starfleet to agree to such an idea.  However, I do know someone I can pitch the idea to.  Once Starfleet agrees, he’s a lot closer to Cardassian space.  If anyone can get it to work, it’s him.”

 

            “See, isn’t this better than crying on the couch?” Simmons asked with a smile.  Raiajh nodded.

 

            “Jack, a good cry every now and again never hurt anyone.  However, the headache that goes along with it… That’s something I can do without.”

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate 52595.6

San Francisco, California

 

            Commodore Val’ri Raiajh sat with Captain William McLeod of the USS Besiege in her office as they discussed the proposed mission at hand.  McLeod and his crew, while the Besiege was under repair, were to man the USS Hawk for one mission to assist the Enterprise and the Defiant at Betazed.

 

            “Commodore, my CMO was injured in our last battle.  He’s not going to be able to be a part of this mission.”

 

            “I know someone who will work in his place.  His name is Doctor Jack Simmons.  He has lived on Betazed and knows the area where many of the resistance cells are located.  He will be able to help your security and tactical officer with the best plan of attack.”

 

            “Commodore, I have to admit that Lieutenant Pearson has proven to be an exceptional fit at that position, since Penji Fil was promoted to first officer.  She has gotten us out of more tight spots than I care to speculate since this war began.  If all goes well at Betazed, I’ll be putting her in for promotion.  She certainly deserves it.”

 

            “I’m happy that she’s finally found her niche.  Captain, how soon can you be ready?”

 

            “I’ll need 72 hours to call the crew back from leave. I’m sure some of them will be disappointed, after having spent so much time on the front, but when they hear what our mission will be I’m sure they’ll understand.  Have Doctor Simmons report aboard before that time.”

 

            “Not a problem.  Thank you, Captain.”

 

            “Thank YOU, Commodore, for allowing us this opportunity.  You and Doctor Xaran may no longer be aboard the Besiege, but many of those on the Besiege still think of both of you as part of the crew.  When we first heard that Betazed fell while Sylvan was still there, everyone wanted to attempt a rescue.  They will perform their duty well.”

 

            “I expect no less, Captain.  Dismissed.”

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate 52678.7

USS Hawk en route to rendezvous with starships Defiant and Enterprise

 

            Fleet Captain Penji Fil, wearing his Surface Ops Blacks, or S.O.B.’s as the crew started to call them, walked into sickbay to greet his CMO for the mission.  He found an auburn-haired man working behind the desk in the CMO’s office, wearing his standard duty uniform.

 

            “Doctor Simmons, I’m Fleet Captain Penji Fil, the executive officer.”

 

            Simmons stood up and greeted Fil.  “Greetings, Sir.”

 

            The pair exchanged handshakes before Fil said, “According to your records, you grew up on Betazed.”

 

            “Yes, sir.  My parents still reside near Lake Cataria.  Doctor Xaran and I were friends growing up.  Our families would go on camping trips together in the Loneel Valley, where I believe we’ll find the resistance.”

 

            “Good.  We need someone who is familiar with the area.  Lieutenant Cathryn Pearson, our tactical officer, just returned from leave.  You will be working closely with her.  As soon as she’s ready she’ll brief you on our mission.  A bit of advice for you, Doctor.  If you don’t wish to be a patient in your own sickbay, don’t call her Cathy or Kitty or anything like that.  I learned that lesson the hard way years ago when we were both wet-behind-the-ears ensigns.”

 

            “I’ll keep that in mind, Captain.”

 

            “One other thing, Doctor.  You’re out of uniform.  Please make sure in the future that you are wearing your S.O.B.’s,” the Catullan officer said as he turned to exit sickbay.  As the doors swished shut behind him, Simmons looked down at his standard duty uniform.

 

            “Yes, sir,” he finally said.

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate: 52680.4

USS Hawk

 

            Although Captain William McLeod and his crew were unfamiliar with the Yeager-class ship, which was a variant of the Intrepid-class but with better armament, he accepted the short-term assignment of the vessel while the Besiege underwent refit and repair.  They were now headed to Betazed in the hopes of assisting the Enterprise-E with the final push to free Betazed from Dominion grasp and to rescue a former crewman, Dr. Sylvan Xaran, whom the Besiege had transported to Betazed just prior to the Dominion occupation.

 

            Down in sickbay, sitting on the bio-beds facing each other, Dr. Jack Simmons – who was now wearing his S.O.B.’s – was conversing with Lieutenant Cathryn Elisabeth Pearson, the crew’s tactical officer.  Since settling in aboard the Hawk, Simmons had found Pearson easy to work with, and she was definitely good at her job, though that was not surprising as he did not expect anything less from this crew.  Every last member had volunteered for duty aboard the Besiege.

 

            Their tasks in preparation for their arrival at Betazed completed and their watches over, the pair were just sitting in sickbay, talking.  He was surprised to find that Pearson knew his friend Sylvan Xaran and Sylvan’s wife Val’ri as well as she did, even more so to find out that Raiajh and Pearson had been cabin mates when they were posted together aboard the original Arcturus.

 

            “How is Val?” Pearson asked.  “I haven’t seen her since before the war began except for her brief visit aboard before we transported Sylvan to Betazed.”

 

            “As well as can be expected under the circumstances,” Simmons replied.  “A new mother who also has the responsibility of coordinating resources to fight this war at the same time her husband has been trapped behind enemy lines.  She’s been trying to hold thing together for her two girls.  And she misses Sylvan something terrible.”

 

            “Two girls?” questioned Pearson, a slight smile coming to her lips.  “I knew Val was pregnant, but I never did ask what she was having.”

 

            “Katrina was born on September 25th back on Earth.”

 

            “That would have been right after we received word that Betazed was captured by the Dominion.  That must have been hard for her.”  Simmons nodded as Pearson continued, “I’m sure that she does miss Sylvan.  If two people were ever meant to be together, it would be them.  After all, they crossed time to be together.”  Pearson’s expression turned dreamy as she thought back to when Raiajh and Xaran met.  “When I met up with her after the Arcturus crew went back to the Academy for re-training, I could almost swear that they were even closer than before they had gotten married.”

 

            “I remember,” Simmons said.  “I had just begun my fourth year at Starfleet Medical.  When we returned to classes, Sylvan told me he had gotten married.  He was supposed to have gone back to Betazed over the break, so at first I thought he had married the girl his parents had arranged for, Anatessa Kitrin, despite his repeatedly stating that he would not.  It wasn’t that he didn’t like her.  They had known each other since they were small children and had been bonded.  But for some reason, the two were never able to read each other or communicate telepathically.  They couldn’t get past that.  He told me that he always knew he would never marry Tessa.  He once told me that the girl he would marry was not on Betazed.  I just chalked it up to him having a bit of wanderlust.”

 

            “When Val first noticed Sylvan,” Pearson explained, “she didn’t know much about Betazoids except that they existed.  The first time she noticed him, we were sitting in one of the recreation areas on the Arcturus talking.  Suddenly she stopped talking and looked up right at him.  As Sylvan walked away I teased her that it because he looked human.  Then I asked her what made her look when he passed by.  She told me that as he passed, she felt him touch her mind.  She didn’t find it invasive or anything, just a brush, but it got her attention.  Over the next week he kept trying to engage her in conversation.  It wasn’t that she was trying to avoid him or anything, he just had really bad timing.  They finally got a chance to talk over lunch one day and they never looked back since.  Sylvan and Val got married the day before Sylvan was scheduled to leave for Betazed, less than 24 hours after we had returned to Earth.  They weren’t being sneaky about it, but they didn’t advertise it either.  My friends from the Arcturus and I happened to see them on Fremont Street in Las Vegas.  We had one of our shipmates, Penji Fil, follow them to see what they were up to in Las Vegas and he came back with the news that they had married.  From what I heard, after that they never left Earth.”

 

            “I heard some of the story behind that,” Simmons remarked.  “Sylvan told me his parents went to great lengths to try to and have their marriage annulled.  Their petition to the Deltan Embassy fell on deaf ears, which was not surprising since the Ambassador is a member of Val’s family, and Starfleet pretty much told Troy Xaran they had no regulations against service members marrying.  The day that Starfleet held its hearing was also the day that Sylvan’s brother died and Charissa came to live with them.  Sylvan said his father only accepted Val after she communicated with him telepathically.  That didn’t surprise me.  Betazoids generally only use verbal speech to converse with small children and off-worlders.  Between Betazoids, what they call polite or civilized conversation is done telepathically.  And Trina Xaran, Sylvan’s mother, never accepted Val, which hurt Sylvan.  However, she never cared much for anyone who wasn’t Betazoid.”

 

            “I’ve always admired Val’s strength and commitment to her principles,” Pearson remarked.  “In a 45-day period she went from there being just her to meeting and marrying Sylvan, and by the time we returned for the Academy retraining, becoming the guardian of a four-year-old.”

 

            “They did go through a bit of turmoil very quickly,” Simmons agreed.  “Any other pair would have probably packed it in before their first year was over.  I think many believed that was exactly what would happen.”

 

            “I have to admit I was one of them.  From the beginning I counseled Val to take it slow.  She said she would, then did just the opposite.  In the beginning I was thinking that Val fell for Sylvan the way she did because he was the first telepath who took an interest in her in a way no one else had.  Several of the Terran men on Arcturus took an interest in her, but none of the Vulcans or Deltans ever paid her any mind beyond work.”

 

            “That’s ok,” Simmons admitted.  “I was among those who thought it would never last too, for reasons similar to yours.  That first time I met Val, I was surprised.  Before I actually met her, when Sylvan told me she part Vulcan, I was expecting someone who acted more like a typical Vulcan.  You know what I’m getting at…  That icy, logical façade.”  Pearson nodded as Simmons continued, “It turned out she has such a wonderful personality.  She’s not exactly outgoing, but she’s not totally reserved either.”

 

            “She probably would be more outgoing if she hadn’t been teased so much as a child and a teen.  First, it was the other Deltan children at the Embassy on Earth where she grew up, then from the full-blooded Vulcans of similar age when she attended the Vulcan Science Academy.  She said she found the human children who lived in the Sausalito neighborhood where the Deltan Embassy is located more accepting of her than her own relatives.”

 

            As the evening ticked by, the pair continued talking, oblivious to their surroundings.  It was nearly 0200 when Simmons finally walked Pearson back to her quarters and then retired to his own.  Once back in her assigned cabin, Pearson berated herself for losing track of the time like she had.  It was a long time since she had done anything like that.  Then, as she thought back on the evening, Pearson hoped that she had made a new friend today.  Taking off her uniform and climbing into bed, she tried not to think about anything more.  Simmons was certainly nice, but she did not expect anything further to result, considering that after this mission he would be returning to his assignment on Earth and she would be returning to the Besiege, and there was no guarantee that either of them would survive this war.

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate 52689.9

Betazed

 

            A small away team from the Hawk, consisting of Pearson, Simmons, and four of Starfleet Marines, beamed down to the surface of Betazed, crouching in a tight circle, each facing outward, phaser rifles at the ready.  The area showed no activity according to sensors, but since situations change quickly, it was better to play it safe.  They had chosen this particular area for beam in because it was the same area where the Xaran and Simmons families would go camping years earlier.  It was the most logical place to start their search for Xaran and the others as both Simmons and Dr. Xaran were quite familiar with this area.  Pearson took out her tricorder and began scanning.

 

            “I’m detecting a cave opening a half-kilometer ahead, but I can’t tell if there are any life signs in the cave,” she reported.

 

            “You won’t,” Simmons remarked quietly.  “As I said in the pre-mission briefing, the caves here are naturally resistant to scanning due to the high fistrium content in the rocks.  But that’s also a reason why it’s probably the best place to start looking for them.”

 

            The away team made their way through the brush as quietly as they could until they were only meters from the cave opening.  Pearson reached for her tricorder again, but Simmons stopped her.

 

            “The only way to find out is to go in,” he advised.

 

            “Not the best of ideas,” one of the Marines remarked.  “The cave could be full of Jem’Hadar.”

 

            “Not likely,” Simmons replied.  “Look!”

 

            Everyone turned toward where the doctor was pointing to find a human-looking male child of about 10 years of age peeking out of the low cave entrance.  The boy appeared to notice the Starfleet officers and quickly ducked back inside the cave.  The six quickly followed the child into the cave to see exactly what they had found.  After passing through a narrow entrance that extended for several dozen meters, the cave opened up into a large open space.

 

            “No need to be afraid,” Pearson called out.  “We’re from Starfleet.”

 

            Pearson’s voice echoed through the cavern for a moment before a female voice form somewhere inside called back, “You didn’t bring that pointy-eared demon with you, did you?”  Almost immediately another pair of embarrassed-sounding voices exclaimed, “Mother!”

 

            “Commodore Raiajh sends her regrets that she couldn’t join us today, Mrs. Xaran,” Dr. Simmons called out as he stepped further into the cavern.

 

            Pearson knew they had stumbled right into the right place on their first try.  She had recognized the embarrassed voices of both Sylvan and Jill Xaran.  She then remembered Raiajh telling her about the fact that Trina Xaran, Sylvan’s mother, did not exactly like her.  However, she had no idea the woman was so xenophobic.  The Marines accompanying them were even less enthused by their greeting.

 

            “At ease,” Pearson ordered.  “People are still entitled to their opinions.”

 

            From further within the cave there was another male voice, which grew louder as it came closer.

 

            “Can’t you give that boy of yours a break?  It’s really getting quite annoying.”  When the man came into view there was no mistaking who he could be, since except for the age difference, he looked exactly like Jack Simmons.  He smiled when he saw the Starfleet officers before a look of surprise appeared on his face.  “Jack!  What are you doing here?”

 

            “We’re here to help you.  Dad, I’d like to introduce you to Lieutenant Cathryn Pearson.  She’ll be helping us coordinate an attack against the Jem’Hadar.”

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate  52698.2

Betazed


            The stronger telepaths in his group had received word that they were mounting an attack against the Jem’Hadar, using a telepathic projection of emotions to distract and overcome the Dominion soldiers.  As he was too weak telepathically, Xaran would not be participating in the telepathic assault.  Instead he would be leading some the human members of his resistance cell to help round up the Cardassian and Jem’Hadar soldiers.  Cathryn Pearson led a second group with a similar mission while Steve Callahan would stay behind in the shelter with the children, including his own son who was born just two weeks earlier.  As both his wife, Anatessa Kitrin, and their friend, Jill Xaran, were among the strongest telepaths in their cell, they were needed elsewhere.  Even Xaran’s mother Trina had also volunteered to help.

 

            Xaran knew there were several Starfleet ships in orbit, and their crews were assisting in the effort as well.  Word had reached the surface already that the space station the Cardassians had started building in orbit, Sentok Nor, had already been destroyed.

 

            The resistance had chosen the time for their planet-wide attack against the Jem’Hadar soldiers.  Xaran’s cell had gotten into position near the closest Dominion camp and waited for the time of the attack to arrive.  At first, as they observed enemy, the resistance members did not notice any change in the demeanor of the Jem’Hadar.  But as they sat there, the behavior of the Jem’Hadar soldiers began to change.  The alien soldiers were either becoming catatonic or had begun fighting amongst themselves.  Xaran employed the mental shielding techniques that his wife had taught him, otherwise the wave of emotions that were assaulting the Jem’Hadar would have been overwhelming for him as well.  Even with the full mental control he was practicing, Xaran was still able to feel some of what was happening.

 

            After some time had passed, a signal was transmitted, signaling for all the cells to move in and begin rounding up the Dominion soldiers as they captured their objectives.  In their current state, the Cardassians and Jem’Hadar were easily subdued, and all were transported to holding areas.

 

            It took less than an hour from the time the attacks had begun before Betazed was freed from Dominion forces.  However, they had paid a high price for that freedom.  When Xaran and the others returned to their shelter in the caves, they learned that both Xaran’s mother Trina and Anatessa Kitrin had both died from the strain of using their mental powers in such an extreme manner and Jill Xaran was extremely weakened, but was expected to live.

 

*          *          *

 

            Xaran sat down next to his sister Jill, who was lying down resting.

 

            “Sylvan, I don’t think I should have helped today.  Even though I didn’t want to admit it to myself before, I should have listened to my instincts.  I’m probably going to be a horrible parent to my child.  When I volunteered, I didn’t even think about it.  I didn’t want to think about it; or believe it to be true.  I’ve made some pretty bad decisions in my life but this one…”

 

            Xaran thought he knew what his sister was trying to tell him, but her thoughts sounded a bit incoherent.  “Jill, what are you trying to tell me?”

 

            “Sylvan, six months ago, I made a terrible choice.  At the time, I thought it was just one time and no one would have to know.  Now I have to live with the consequences of my actions.  How could I have been so stupid?  I’m not ready to have a kid!”

 

            “Jill, sometimes we all make decisions that we regret afterward.  You knew the possibilities of the choice you made.”  Xaran lowered his voice as he asked, “Are you going to tell me who the father is?”

 

            “Yes, I knew the possibilities,” Jill replied.  “I just didn’t think I would actually have to face them.  And to answer your question, no, it would not be prudent to tell you.  I hope you respect my decision and not ask again.”

 

            “I won’t ask again.  But perhaps one day you’ll decide to tell me.  Until then, I will respect your decision.”

 

            “Thank you,” Jill quietly replied.  “How are you feeling?”

 

            “I’m fine.”

 

            “Don’t play games with me.  I know better.”

 

            “It hasn’t really hit me yet.  Mother really strained the relationship we had through her treatment of Val.”

 

            “That’s not what I meant,” Jill scolded.

 

            “I know.  I’m sorry Tessa is gone, and I’m going to miss her, but if I’m supposed to feel as if I lost something, I don’t.  Jill, Tessa was a great friend and all, but that’s all she was.  If we were bonded like our parents claimed, I know I should feel some sort of loss of that, but I don’t, and it’s not because of Val.”

 

            “You know, I think you may be right,” Jill admitted.  “Our parents made sure we knew from the beginning who our bond mates were.  When Soronen died in that shuttle accident, I felt it.  Tessa once told me that for her it was like you weren’t there.  She found it odd that she couldn’t even read your surface thoughts, even when you were nearby.  She could read Jack Simmons and everyone else she knew with no problems, but never you, which was surprising.  Tessa was as strong a telepath as Mother.”

 

            “I was never able to read Tessa either,” Xaran admitted.  “I remember if you and I were in a crowded room, you were always able to find your way to Soronen without seeing him.  I never had that with Tessa.  I tried everything I could think of, but nothing worked.  I even went for religious counseling to see if that would help.  I was told that it was possible that the Four Deities had other plans for me and bonded me to another at or before birth.  It explained why I always felt that I would find my love among the stars.  Oddly enough, the first time I felt the kind of connection you had with Soronen was the first time I encountered Val aboard the Arcturus.  The moment I walked into that rec room, I was able to sense her over everyone else who was there.  When I asked her why she had looked at me so directly that evening, she told me that she felt my touch in her mind.  And I felt hers too.  Neither of us did it consciously, it just happened.”

 

            “I don’t know.  I’ve never taken much stock in our religious beliefs.  I know that Mom and Dad did what they felt was best for us.  For you, perhaps it is possible that a higher force was involved, considering what you felt the first day you met Val.  I know Vulcans bond their children to their future mates similar to what Betazoids do.  Since Val is half-Vulcan, was she bonded to anyone?”

 

            “She never knew her father, so she was not bonded to anyone in her youth.”

 

            Jill sat up and looked around the cavern.  She noticed Simmons and Pearson sitting together across the space, talking.

 

            “How did he ever manage that?” Jill asked, looking in Simmons’s direction.  Xaran turned his own attention on the pair across the cave.

 

            “I haven’t a clue,” Xaran replied.  Cathryn does talk to her ship mates when she needs to, but once she was posted to the Besiege all she usually did was her job and studying when she wasn’t on duty, rarely interacting with any of the crew except for a occasional times in the mess and infrequent discussions with the executive officer, Penji Fil.  She hasn’t been this relaxed around anyone since she was posted on the Sarek, and then it was only with her former Arcturus shipmates and one of the security officers she often drilled with.”

 

            “You know, I haven’t ever seen Cathryn that relaxed around someone she hardly knows,” Jill remarked, still observing the pair.  “Unless I’m mistaken and you’ve introduced her to Jack before?”

 

            “On the occasions when Cathryn visited us, Jack was usually working, so no.  Val never wanted Cathryn to feel as if we were trying to set her up with someone, so even if their schedules allowed, we probably would not have introduced them.”

 

            “Then it’s probably for the best that they met this way.”

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate 52710.1

USS Hawk, en route back toward Earth

 

            Simmons was relaxing in his quarters on the Hawk.  He had pulled out a bottle of bourbon that he brought with him from Earth, but before he had a chance to replicate a glass to drink it out of, his door chime sounded.

 

            “Come in,” he said, expecting it would be either Captain McLeod or first Officer Fil.  The door slid open and Cathryn Pearson walked in.

 

            “Hi.  I got your parents settled into the guest quarters.  They said, after the last several months under occupation, they wanted to stay on Earth for a while so I offered them the use of the cabin my brother left me in Mississauga.  It just sits empty anyway, as I spend my time on the Besiege and never get to enjoy it.  They started asking how long I’ve known you?

 

            “That must have turned into an interesting conversation,” Simmons remarked.

 

            “When I told them that we only knew each other a few days, they didn’t want to believe me.  I explained to them that the cabin was sitting empty and I was looking for renters and that I have been friends with Val and Sylvan for several years.  Especially Val.  In the end they said they would think about it and I left it at that.”  She then noticed the bottle of amber liquid on the table.  “Jack, I’m sorry.  I didn’t mean to disturb you.  I can leave.”

 

            Simmons pressed a few buttons on the replicator control panel, and a pair of glasses materialized instead of just one.

 

            “Please stay.  I actually prefer to drink with a friend.”

 

            Pearson smiled and took the offered empty glass.  Simmons then filled each glass with about a shot’s worth of liquor.

 

            “A toast to the end of a successful mission,” Simmons said as he raised his glass.

 

            “And to those we leave behind,” Pearson added, raising her own glass before clinking it against the one in Simmons’ hand.  They quickly emptied their drinks and placed the glasses on the table.  The latter part of the toast had become a weekly ritual, on Fridays, in the mess hall on the Besiege since the war with the Dominion had began.  Pearson then asked, “Mind if I replicate something to eat?  I haven’t had time to stop and grab a bite all day.”

 

            “Sure, if you don’t mind me joining you.”

 

            Pearson nodded, then ordered a New York style thin-crust pepperoni pizza from the replicator while Simmons returned his bottle of bourbon to its storage locker and pulled some beer out of a small refrigerator that was installed in the quarters.     Pearson looked at the doctor in amazement.

 

            “Where did you get all this?  Captain McLeod doesn’t allow us to have the real stuff, at least while the war is still going on.”

 

            “Easy.  It was one of the stipulations I gave Commodore Raiajh in exchange for agreeing to come on this mission.  I refuse to drink Ferengi synthaholic swill.”

 

            “You didn’t!” Pearson asked with a laugh.

 

            Simmons nodded, removing the caps from the beer and handing one to her.  A few hours later, the pizza consumed along with a few of the beers, they were still sitting at the table and talking.  During a brief pause in the conversation, Simmons leaned over and kissed Pearson.  The tactical officer was not sure what to make of the gesture, but in a few days they would be back at Earth and she probably would not see Simmons again, so she allowed herself to get caught up in the moment.  It had been a long time since she had experienced such a moment, and at the present a drunken one-off didn’t seem to be such a bad idea, despite the fact that it might mean losing someone she hoped would become a friend.

 

            The following morning Jack Simmons awoke to the subtle scent of peaches and the sound of quiet snoring.  He turned to find Pearson asleep next to him in the bunk.  He gently turned over on his side to face her and gently stroked her hair.  Pearson opened her eyes at his touch.  She had hoped to be gone before he woke, and mentally berated herself for falling asleep.  Simmons moved his hand away, recognizing the look on her face.

 

            “If you want to leave, I won’t stop you.  However, you are equally as welcome to stay.”

 

            Pearson did not get out of the bed, but she made no effort to move closer to Simmons either.

 

            “Jack,” she began awkwardly.  “I’m not sorry for what happened.  I’m not looking for a relationship.  I was hoping we could have been friends, but I understand if that can’t be the case.”

 

            “Why can’t we be friends?” Simmons replied.  “I can understand not looking for a relationship, especially in the middle of a war.  But I certainly don’t want to lose you as a friend.  You are the most interesting person I’ve met in a long time.”

 

            “I enjoy working with this crew,” Pearson explained.  “Sometimes it’s tough working on such a small ship as the Besiege, especially being just one of four females.  I’m sure word has reached half the ship by now that I haven’t yet left your quarters.”

 

            “Try not to let it bother you,” Simmons implored.  You did nothing you should be ashamed of.”

 

            “I know.  What I did doesn’t bother me.  It’s just…”

 

            “Just what?” he asked.

 

            “It’s been almost eight years since my world was turned upside down,” Pearson explained.  “I’m still having difficulty adjusting on a personal level.  I was very close to my family.  When the Arcturus disappeared in 2288, my Mother was still pregnant with my youngest brother.  Next thing I know, its 79 years later.  I was shocked to find out that my parents and all my siblings except Jake, a brother I never even knew, were gone.  And I never got a chance to really know Jake either.  I was always close to my family.  What I have now are nieces and nephews who are grandparents themselves.  When I return to Earth, it doesn’t feel like home anymore.  Since then, I’ve found it difficult to let new people into my life.  Now I feel that Val and a few members of the original Arcturus crew are the only ‘family’ I have left.  And thanks to this damn war, I’ve lost some of them too.”

 

            Cathryn, I can’t begin to imagine what you’ve gone through, but you shouldn’t punish yourself for it.  What happened to the Arcturus wasn’t anyone’s fault.”

 

            “I know.  I’m sorry.  I shouldn’t be burdening you with this.”

 

            “It’s fine.  I’ve seen the weekly casualty reports too.  It hurts when it lists someone you know and worked with.  It hurts even more when they were a friend.  I’ve lost my share of friends too.”

 

            “I’m sorry, Jack.  I realize some of those that died in liberating Betazed were your friends, and Sylvan’s too.”

 

            “They did what they did willingly to free their homes and families.  Their deaths were honorable.  It doesn’t make their deaths any less painful though.  They will be missed.”

 

            “I’m sure they will,” Pearson said.  Betazed paid a high price for its freedom.”

 

            “Enough talk about death,” Simmons remarked as he pulled the covers off himself.  “How about some breakfast?”

 

            “Trying to get rid of me after my tirade?” Pearson joked.

 

            “Not at all.  I want you to stay,” he replied, pulling her into a hug.  She returned the hug.  Feeling her relax in his embrace, Simmons smiled.

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate 52775.1

San Francisco, California, Earth

 

            Xaran’s debriefing went easily and he was quickly on his way to see his wife.  Finding his wife’s office in the Admiralty Building, however, was proving difficult.  He quickly located what had been her office before he left for Betazed, now empty.  It was vacant and being prepared for whomever its new occupant was going to be.  When he stepped back into the corridor he asked the first person he saw, another flag aide, where Commodore Raiajh had been moved to and how to get there.  Several floors and a corridor later, Xaran finally found the correct office.  He stepped through the door and found Lieutenant Quintero sitting behind the reception desk, facing away from him.

 

            “Hello, Marie,” Dr. Xaran greeted.

 

            Quintero turned around from unpacking shipping boxes to look at the man standing in front of her desk.  The voice was familiar, but the goatee was a new feature.

 

            “Doctor Xaran?” she asked uncertainly.  Xaran nodded.  “Oh my!  It’s good to see you again!”  Quintero rushed around her desk and embraced the doctor in a tight hug.

 

            “It’s good to be home,” Xaran agreed.  He then took the smaller of two bunches of flowers he was holding and handed them to Quintero.  “For you.”

 

            “Thank you, Doctor Xaran!  I’ll let your wife know you are here.  She’s currently meeting with Admiral Nechayev.”

 

            Still carrying the flowers Xaran had given her, Quintero walked over to the door and knocked before it swished open.  She then peeked her head inside and said, “Admirals, Doctor Xaran is here!”

 

            Admiral Alynna Nechayev stood up from her chair, a smile appearing on her face as she said, “I guess this means it’s time for you to start your leave, Val’ri.  We’ll continue our discussion when you return.”

 

            Xaran walked into Raiajh’s office, Nechayev passing him as he stepped in.

 

            “It is good to see you again, Admiral Nechayev,” he remarked as he took one of the carnations from the second bouquet and handed it to the Fleet Admiral.

 

            “It is good to see you home safe again too, Commander,” Nechayev replied.  “I hope you both enjoy your well-earned leave.”  The admiral then accepted the carnation and walked out of the office while sniffing it, allowing the door to close behind her as she left.  Once the door was closed, Raiajh stepped out from behind the desk and jumped into Xaran’s waiting arms.  She hugged him fiercely with her arms around his neck and her legs around his back as he held her around her waist.

 

            ‘I’ve missed you so much,’ she projected into his mind.

 

            ‘I missed you too, Imzadi,’ was his reply.

 

            After sharing a passionate kiss, Raiajh unwound herself from her husband and planted her feet firmly on the ground.  She then looked up at him and stroked his chin.

 

            ‘I can remove it if you don’t like it,’ he remarked, referring to his goatee, all that remained of the bushy beard that had grown during his exile on Betazed.

 

            ‘Don’t you dare,’ Raiajh replied.  ‘I like it.’

 

            Xaran leaned forward to kiss his wife again, but stopped, noticing for the first time that her rank insignia now had two gold pips.

 

            “Now that I think back on it, I did hear Marie call you Admiral!”

 

            “Rear Admiral-select, actually.  The new rank doesn’t officially take effect until Stardate 53001, but they held the ceremony yesterday because I was going on leave until after that date.  Speaking of leave, it’s time we get going.  There’s a little girl down at the daycare center waiting to meet her Daddy.”

 

            Raiajh tried to pull back from Xaran, but he brought his hands up to encompass each side of her face as he leaned over and kissed her.  He felt her lower lip begin to tremble and her tears on his face.  Then, as she lowered her mental shields, he was flooded with her emotions.  He held her close, allowing her this release.  Xaran knew this forced separation was tough on both of them.  Now, letting her emotions wash over him, he realized just how difficult it had been for his wife all these months.

 

            Soon enough, she had cried herself out and regained her composure.  Looking at her and wiping the tears from her face, he asked, “Feel better?”

 

            Raiajh nodded.  “I’m sorry.  I hate when I lose control like that.”

 

            Xaran smiled at her.  “Val, there’s nothing to be sorry about.  After what we’ve been though, you have every right to feel the way you have felt.  I know it has been hard on you all these months.  It’s been hard on me too, being away from you, Charissa, and Katrina.  There were times back on Betazed that I cried too.  I hated not being there for you when Katrina was born.  My mother constantly putting you down made me miss you even more.”

 

            Raiajh stared into her husband’s inky black eyes and spoke aloud, “I love you, Sylvan Xaran.”

 

            “And I love you, Val’ri Raiajh,” he replied.  Xaran then leaned over and kissed her again, a kiss she passionately returned.  A few moments later they separated and, hand in hand, left Raiajh’s office behind for six weeks of leave with Katrina.  Four would be spent in Sydney, Australia with just Katrina, the new parents getting to know their infant daughter together.  The final two weeks would be spent at home, in San Francisco, with Charissa – who would be cared for by Jack Simmons while her parents and baby sister were away in order for her not to miss too much school.  Raiajh had discussed her plans with Charissa, who understood.  For her, she was happy simply knowing her Dad was back at home.

 

            As they passed through the reception room, Raiajh turned to Lt Quintero and said, “Can you call down to the daycare center and ask them to have Katrina ready?”

 

            “Of course, Admiral.  I hope you and Doctor Xaran enjoy your leave.  I’ll see you when you return in six weeks.”

 

*          *          *

 

Stardate 52780.6

USS Besiege

 

            Newly promoted Lt Commander Cathryn Pearson settled into her quarters on the Besiege after her afternoon watch on the bridge.  She had just started to get out of her S.O.B.’s when her combadge chirped.

 

            “Pearson here.”

 

            “Commander, there’s a subspace communication coming in for you from Earth,” announced the Officer of the Deck.

 

            “I’ll take it down here.”

 

            She walked over to the nearby wall-mounted viewscreen and activated it, thinking the incoming message was probably Commodore Val’ri Raiajh calling to congratulate her on her promotion.  As the monitor blinked past the image of the Starfleet Command emblem, Pearson was surprised that it was Jack Simmons on the other end.

 

            “Hello Cathryn,” he said warmly.

 

            “Jack!  What a pleasant surprise!”

 

            “Sorry we couldn’t meet up before the Besiege left the Sol system.  However, I was able to get up to the San Francisco Fleetyards in time to see the Besiege crew receive their promotions.  Congratulations on making Lieutenant Commander.  Unfortunately, with everything that was going on, I couldn’t get close enough to talk to you in person before you returned to your ship, and I am sorry for that.”

 

            “It was nice that you could be there,” Pearson replied, touched by Simmons effort.  “It would have been nice to see you again.  How are things back in San Francisco?”

 

            “Good.  However, I’m ready for Val and Sylvan to get back from Sydney already.  Charissa is getting to be quite a handful.  I should have let Marie take her instead.”

 

            “She’s nearly a teenager,” Pearson observed.

 

            “That she is, with everything that entails.  So, where’s the Besiege headed now, if I may ask?”

 

            “We’re rendezvousing with the fleet to strike at Chin’toka again.  Hopefully we’ll have better results this time.”

 

            “Hopefully,” Simmons remarked.  “Liberating Betazed and the Kalandra System seemed to be a turning point for the Federation and our allies.  I hope that we can continue this surge.”  Simmons then turned his head briefly before looking back at Pearson through the monitor.  “Sorry I can’t talk more today.  I’ll call again as soon as I can get through.  Until then, stay safe, Cathryn.”

 

            “I’ll try my best,” she promised.  Then, as the screen flashed back to the Starfleet Command emblem before going dark, she smiled.  Slowly she stepped back to her bunk and laid down on it as she activated her personal log.

 

 

Stardate 52780.6 

I can’t believe Jack actually called.  It was good to hear his voice again…

 

*          *          *

 

September 1, 2376

Stardate 53680.1

The Year Following the End of the Dominion War

San Francisco, California, Earth

 

            The early morning sun was beginning to shine through the window when Raiajh woke them both with a muffled scream.

 

            Imzadi, what’s wrong?” Xaran asked as he tried to clear his head from the sudden shock.

 

            “The baby’s coming!”

 

            “Then let’s get you to Starfleet Medical.”

 

            “Sylvan, you don’t understand,” Raiajh said with a sense of urgency, a tear sliding down her cheek.  “He’s coming now!”

 

            “Try not to push,” Xaran implored.  “Let me check.”  He looked around for his tricorder and remembered he had left it in the kitchen.  “Lean back a bit, I’m going to have to check you without the tricorder.”

 

            Raiajh did what her husband requested and after a quick examination he realized that getting to Starfleet Medical was not an option.  He called out to the replicator to provide a birthing kit.  He quickly grabbed it once it had materialized and set it up with a speed that spoke of the urgency of the situation.  Then, turning back to Raiajh, he asked, “Ready?”  She nodded.  “I need you to push now.”

 

            Raiajh complied, pushing as her husband counted to ten.  He then paused for a moment for her to catch a breath before they repeated the process.  After a few minutes and several more pushes they were greeted with Julian’s strong and healthy cries.  Xaran cleaned up the boy and wrapped him in the blanket that came with the birthing kit.  He then sat down on the edge of the bed, holding and looking at the child as if trying to memorize his features.  Raiajh sat up and quietly watched Xaran holding their son, smiling gently.  After a while she noticed the baby getting a little squirmy.  She looked at Xaran and said, “You’re about to…”  The sudden change in Xaran’s expression cut her off momentarily before she finally finished, “…get wet.”

 

            Slowly shaking his head, Xaran handed the baby to his wife and stripped off his undershirt.  Meanwhile Raiajh removed the wet blanket from little Julian and did the best she could to keep him covered.

 

            ‘Can I get a diaper, a dry blanket, and something to clean him?’ Raiajh projected to her husband.  Once he had finished cleaning himself, Xaran retrieved the requested items, allowing Raiajh to diaper the infant before wrapping the boy in the fresh new blanket.  As she performed the tasks, Xaran took a moment to call Simmons to come over, then cleaned up the bed before returning to sit by Raiajh.  She sat and held the child, looking at him lovingly.  Except for his Vulcanoid ears, the boy looked almost exactly like the vids she had seen of Xaran as a baby.

 

            ‘How are you feeling Imzadi?’ Xaran asked.

 

            ‘I feel fine.  I’m a little tired, but I was tossing and turning most of the night.’

 

            ‘You really didn’t feel anything prior to the need to push?’

 

            ‘Just some minor cramping all night.  I used that pain relieving trick I know.  Easy births are not uncommon.’

 

            ‘I have to admit that was definitely the easiest birth I’ve attended.  You did wonderful.’

 

            ‘I had you there to help me.’

 

            ‘You know, he looks like you,’ Xaran remarked.

 

            ‘And you tell me I don’t lie well,’ Raiajh replied.  ‘Except for the ears, he looks just like you.’

 

            There was a knock at the bedroom door.  Both looked toward the door and Xaran called out, “Yes?”

 

            The couple heard Dr. Simmons’s voice from the other side say, “You asked me to come over, remember?”

 

            “I remember.  Door open.”

 

            The door slid open and Simmons walked in, the door remaining open behind him.  Entering the room, Simmons was greeted by the sight of his long time friend and his wife holding the pair’s newborn son.

 

            “You two are aware that there is a hospital just down the street, right?”

 

            “There was no time,” Xaran explained.  “When I checked her, she was ready to deliver.”

 

            “Uh huh,” Simmons said with a smirk.  “I’m not objecting to you two having the baby here.  I just feel the need to give you a hard time.”

 

            As Xaran and Simmons exchanged remarks, Raiajh looked toward the open door and smiled.

 

            Cathryn,” she called out to the living area.  “You don’t have to sit out there, you can come in too.”  A moment later, Cathryn Pearson walked into the room.

 

            “Sorry,” she said.  “I didn’t know if you were up for company or not.”

 

            “If you were anyone else, probably not,” Raiajh admitted.  “How are you feeling?”

 

            “Good actually.  Jack’s Dad said I’m healing nicely.  I’m told I’ll probably be able to return to duty by the beginning of the year.”

 

            “That’s good to hear.  The grapevine tells me your shipmates miss you.”

 

            “I miss being on the ship too, but at the same time I haven’t enjoyed being back on Earth this much in a long time,” Pearson replied with a smile.

 

            Raiajh noticed Pearson looking at little Julian.  “Would you like to hold him?” she asked.

 

            “May I?”

 

            Pearson sat down on the edge of the bed next to Raiajh and the Vulcan/Deltan woman passed Julian over to her as Simmons looked over Pearson’s shoulder at the boy.  Raiajh noticed the look in his eyes while he used his tricorder to scan the child.  Telepathically she noted to Xaran, ‘I feel for Jack at times like this.  He puts on a brave face for everyone, but it hurts him, knowing he will never be able to enjoy a moment like this with his own child.’

 

            ‘I know.  I see it too,’ Xaran replied.  ‘It seems a bit worse today with Cathryn here.’

 

            “The boy’s perfectly healthy,” Simmons announced.  “Just make sure you bring Val and Julian by Starfleet Medical later today to be checked out.  Now if you’ll excuse me for a moment.”

 

            Simmons quickly stepped out of the bedroom.  As she watched him leave, Raiajh felt him trying to keep his composure.  Xaran followed his friend out of the room.  With both men gone, Pearson looked at Raiajh.

 

            “I’ve never seen Jack do that before,” she commented.

 

            “I know.  It was seeing you holding Julian that affected him more than he realized it would.  You’ve had a profound effect on Jack.  It has made him change how he thinks about his own life.  Until he met you, he never gave much thought to having a family.”

 

            Handing Julian back to Raiajh, Pearson said, “Val, I’m enjoying what I have with Jack.  He told me about the fact that he cannot father children, and I’m fine with that.  We’re taking things at a pace we can handle.  Having him in my life has changed me more than I want to admit.  I meant it when I said that I was enjoying my stay here on Earth.  As strange as it sounds, I feel like I have a family again.  I don’t want to marry Jack, but what he has given me these past few months has been wonderful.”

 

            “That’s great to hear,” Raiajh remarked.

 

            “It’ll be good to see everyone on the Besiege again too.  I heard that we lost a few crewmembers after the war and they haven’t been replaced.  I’ll probably be one of those transferred off by the end of next year too.  I wonder what my next posting will be after the Besiege?

 

            “Actually, McLeod was asked to present the Starfleet Chief of Operations with a list of the twenty crewmembers he wishes to keep.  You aren’t going anywhere.  Your name was right at the top of the list, so the Chief of Starfleet Operations has already approved your continued assignment to the Besiege.”

 

            “You’re pulling my leg!”

 

            “Nope.  You earned everything you’ve got on the Besiege, and you did it all on your own.”

 

            “I would think that my record from my first career in Starfleet would have hindered me.”

 

            Cathryn, being a quartermaster wasn’t a good fit for you.  And you aren’t the only officer in Starfleet who ever switched departments more than once.  Once you found where to best put your skills to use, you excelled.  That’s what’s important.”

 

             “Perhaps I should start thinking bigger and take the bridge officer’s test?”

 

            “That sounds like a very good idea.  Never stop reaching for new goals,” Raiajh’s replied.

 

            “Perhaps, I’ll earn a posting as someone’s first officer one day?” Pearson said half-jokingly.

 

            “You never know, Cathryn,” Raiajh replied.  “You never know.”

 

Fin

 

 

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